The important thing is always to learn. It doesn't matter what you're reading, what you're doing, as long as you're learning. Life is made up of stories, so always make sure to take stock of everything around you, and anything interesting that happens. It may someday make for a good story. But if it doesn't, it was still a learning experience. So go out, learn, live, and make a story worth telling.
I feel like I’m a terrible person right about now. I still don’t have a job, I’m costing my parents a ton of money to get me back and forth to my psych appointments, I’m an awful friend, I’m just generally worthless. I know it’s just the depression talking, but I only know that in an unconnected sort of way. I feel disconnected, like I’m not really here, none of this is actually happening, I don’t really exist. I’ve been feeling that a lot lately. Once again, I know it’s the depression, but that knowledge doesn’t help me not feel this way.
I can’t seem to do anything right any more. I made the lawn look like crap from all the mud that got stirred up from mowing it. I can’t get my posts approved for the paid post stuff I’m doing. I can’t seem to make myself do EntreCard any more. Nobody wants to hire me because my application sucks. I’m not even crazy enough to get Social Security. I can’t get back to school, and I’m afraid I never will be able to. I’m just a lump that does nothing and is worth less. There are times, like right now, when thinking about all this stuff makes me want to cry.
I feel like shit. I look like shit. I am shit.
