The important thing is always to learn. It doesn't matter what you're reading, what you're doing, as long as you're learning. Life is made up of stories, so always make sure to take stock of everything around you, and anything interesting that happens. It may someday make for a good story. But if it doesn't, it was still a learning experience. So go out, learn, live, and make a story worth telling.
I feel a little bit better now. I talked to Jim, and feel a lot less like shit now. I still think I’m a burden on everybody, but at least I’m not as depressed. I think what set me off was the thought of getting a job at a place like Burger King, and either getting fired from it, or getting stuck doing that for the rest of my life, like my friend Barbie’s mom. I don’t care if I’m management, I do NOT want to work a retail or food service job for the rest of my life. That, and right now, I’m so afraid of failure that I’m almost afraid of trying in the first place. What if it’s like Dollar General, and I snap again? I’m so afraid lately. So terrified.
I really do think that the marketing job idea is a good one. I just have to get the money to get back to Wright State first. But at least I have an idea. That librarian idea was good, but there’s not really too much demand for librarians. There’s always demand for advertisers at pretty much every company ever. The classes would be kind of interesting, too. Lots of sociology, one would assume. Gotta get into the mind of the consumer. The pay would be pretty good, too. I dunno. I’ll have to look into it more when I’m closer to having that money. Bleah…
