The important thing is always to learn. It doesn't matter what you're reading, what you're doing, as long as you're learning. Life is made up of stories, so always make sure to take stock of everything around you, and anything interesting that happens. It may someday make for a good story. But if it doesn't, it was still a learning experience. So go out, learn, live, and make a story worth telling.
The secret to a happy life, I have found, isn’t so much having nothing bad happen, it’s the ability to look at those bad things, experience them, live through them, and keep on smiling afterward. I’m learning this. I am happy with everything in my life. I am happy with my job, my singleness, my friends, my family, my flaws, my strengths, my weaknesses. And if any of those things change, I will still be happy. Everything bad, everything good, it’s all a part of living. You experience each thing as it comes along, live it fully, then move on to the next thing when the time comes. The shrinks all called it “mindfulness.” I can see why they were pushing it on me.
I felt sick today at work, and still feel a bit sick right now. I am feeling every bit of the stomach pains, and smiling the whole while. To feel pain is to know you’re alive.
But don’t get me wrong, I’m still the same Amber as before. I still get angry, I still can feel sadness. It just stopped lasting longer than it was supposed to. I’m actually thinking of telling my therapist at my appointment that I’m ready to have my case file closed. I don’t see this feeling ending any time ever. I’m definitely going off the meds. I don’t think I need them any more.
