I want to fucking die. I want to slit my wrists, and bleed the fuck out. But does anyone care? No, they don’t even fucking notice. I’m about to cry, and I don’t even know why. I don’t need a reason to cry any more, a reason to be suicidal. My last day on earth tomorrow, and I’m wishing I were just dead already. Fuck, I just want to die. Prayers don’t come true, wishes don’t either, otherwise I’d've gotten mine long ago. Just… someone kill me, please? I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die.

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One Response to “I Want To Die, More Than Anything Else Ever”

TeslaBoy Says:

In this way we share

As we have grown up, we learned that even the people that weren’t supposed to ever let us down did. We are all free to choose. With choice comes consequence that is the human condition.

Your heart will be broken; probably more than once and it’s harder every time; you’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. From an early age we learn that this will cause you to cry. The tears of a child eventually become tears of a parent; it is the path we walk on. When you cry make sure it is more for others then for yourself. Emotions are real when they are shared.

You’ll eventually lose someone you love. Never forget that all love is contagious and celebrate the joy and not your sadness when you remember them. Loss is inevitable. While our world is forever changed because of it the life cycle itself moves forward and rewards grief with birth.

Every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you’ll never get back. People who love you will want to remember your smiles and not your tears; however find balance with both because they are necessary for your journey.

Don’t be sad that your life as it was needed to change; remember that with great love comes great sadness, there is grace in all things you have encountered and all things and people you have yet to encounter.

We pray on our time and the creator answers on hers. It is important to trust in the lessons we are given; even when they hurt us, for in its design exists the purpose of all that is life and the solutions to absolve the hurt.

There will come a time when what you learn from the lessons that seem to hurt the most right now will be the support you can offer another in time that will change their future and help them towards healing and a returning to simple joys.

Walk in peace
A

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